My silence near
The most addicting thing
We hate and fear
And want and need
Push away and hold dear
Is this
Is you
My silence
My near
A tired drifter across the room
A man
In his latter years
Oriented properly
Does not want pity
Or charity
Or anything as such
Equally unkind in his own mind
But a friend who cares
Enough to not up and walk away
But to see the true state of things
This
Is a gift beyond all measure and kind
Life is neither season nor song
It's so funny
How we humans think
That being alive is somehow
The next thing
The next trip or fall
The next season or song
When really all we have is God and time
And only one of those is a timeless gift
If chosen then both
Can be a blessing to find
And then? What?
Find a mate, and then what?
Get the raise at your job, and then what?
Build a home alive, and then what?
Fully transform your mind, and then what?
Cut your hair to style, and then what?
Burry a loved one who died, and then what?
Raise a child alive, and then what?
Dedicate your whole life, and then what?
So you've won, passed some time -
And then?
Where hope resides
No matter how the feel
Or strong the rise
Or sharp the edge of the wave
Or speed of the receding tide
Regardless of this
All of these
Are things in bloodflow
Or around at least
Are alive
And fun
And full of rushing
And yet
Fun is not what presides
In the heart of all
That instead
Would be hope and where it resides
Parry En Passant
There is a future, young
Open to possibilities endless
And then there is the committed
And guarded
Sword of strength and defensive
That is parry and lunge
The queenside and en passant
Proud Brothers
Sometimes we men
Don't even need to acknowledge
Our pride and joy
In seeing our brothers succeed
Because we as men
Truly grounded in self, and God, and truth
Once believed that we could
And did, and loves
And cannot help but smile at these
When we see our fellow man
Taming stallions and scaling mountains
And felling trees, and planting trees
For these they need no acknowledgement
When we see
Location, aspirations, words
My words and I
Are most please to be
In good breath found
And at leisure with the world
Not that one nor the other
Particularly cares for one another
But the world can have its air
Collapsing mountains and seas
And all the men who toil above and beneath
I instead employ only their minds
Their bright eyes and hopes
When they look beyond you
And above these your skies
There is where I will be
And in great body speak
This is where I aspire for my words to be
A wish for mental silence
Telling myself yes
To letting my mind be
A no
Or nothing
Or even less
Is more of a challenge than
Insert clever meathor here
And then, perhaps
My thoughts will finally come to an end
I wish
How I wish still for still
A walking contradiction
I sit
Next to daydreams
And wish
For quiet and yet company
For understanding and yet new self
For at a distance she
And is the only one
Who kinda knows me then
And certainly now
Cares to see me though
Into this future self and us
For this
I thank her
Saria
Just a beginning
There are at least two
Very distinct
And distinctly different
Passions
For creation
For you
And sake of self mind
For others taste
Enjoyment
For future self
To say you did
For others rights
And right of mind
To name a few
As per these
And this
So here I once
Did
But this is not the end
How to be
You should always do
What is right (in Gods eyes)
Even if noone
Around you knows or even sees
God does
And having created the reason
Knows extensively the why
And any humanbeing
With half a heart still
Uncrooked and true
Would cheer you on
Extensively or in passing with a nod
If they only knew
(of you)
Wishful idealism past
Wishing
Is an endless currency
And we
Perhaps
Or just I
Set myself up with
So many shimmers
And waters
And mirrors
That
Perhaps
I no longer know how
To see
Without a wishful perspective
Spent in true
Unmisery
And oh
How this most
Reflective me
Loves to spend
Such thoughts
As these
Rest in, a tanka
Goodbyes left unsaid
Sounds out in ways, which we cant,
Even sense, or see,
Or taste, or return to dreams
Until we atone for sleep
A less selfish un
Let me never say
That all the words I spent in past
Were strictly for you
No
For as a selfish being
I'm quite sure that my self wished
For all such time to be spoken and spent
Yes
That is a find far more true to be said
As I thought I loved before
And then, there was a universe of you
Suddenly
Saria
Looming
When I am on the table
In a stale room
Atop a small city
And I need breath
More than anything
In a current jolt
Delivered straight to my lungs
Thats when I more than ever
And with widening eyes will hope
For something more than just a lungs forgot
For air itself to be embued
With a crisp refrehing life renewed
I want to breath again
Here
And soon
Respectful Trust
The most valuable thing
In business and life
Is not respect
So much as it is
A respectful trust
That truth is spoken
That action is taken
And that self is not put
So much so forth
But instead this
Steady strong building built
Beneath and for
This us
People respect that
And you by proxy